I feel like I know who I am, but on the other hand do I really because i don't know what I want out of life and if I am on the right path. I thought things were getting better but life keeps testing me. I was working this temp job and I had a great chance of getting hired permanently and making great money. I had to let it go though. Losing my close friend put a lot of things into perspective.
Lately, I feel like I live my life according to what other people think is best for me. Looking back at the decisions I made it was always what someone told me or was influenced by someone else. I guess my justification is that I applied that "constructive criticism" to my life.
But, today I was talking with my cousin who is about to attend college in a few weeks and I had an epiphany. I realized that I am about to be 23 years old in October. So I tried to think of the things I have accomplished and I am coming up short. In less than 5 minutes I realized that I have got to go back to school.
As much as I hated school and as much as I'm passionate about music, I figure that I sacrifice a few years to pursue an actual credible craft and art with something I am already great at doing.
Yes its a damn shame that it took me about 5 years too late to come up with a solid plan for my future, but better late than never.
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